i feel grown up with u in ur car

i survived finals... now, some pics for winter! i'm excited to do the whole flowery thing when there are actually flowers growing. but for now, wide open spaces and blue is my current aesthetic!

i went "urban exploring" with my friend elliot on a cloudy day last weekend. in small cities the only thing to do is explore abandoned buildings and cemeteries, i suppose. it was so stereotypical *teen of our generation*, but hey. my girl lorde gets me.


notting hill was a shitty movie but i watched it anyways: my week in review

i am on a ROLL when it comes to blogging!!!!! 2 times in less than a week???????? WHAT DA fuuUUUUuuuqqq (but seriously i will probs just forget about it in another week and come back around summertime)

today is my second snow day in a row! i would be happy about it but finals is in exactly a week and i am stressing because usually if we have school we can go over stuff and study and now we can't do that and i have no motivation are you kidding me and and and

speaking of no motivation, i've decided maybe if i try to do some things i like (i.e. this blog, and also reading more) they will give me motivation to do other things, such as STUDYING. this blog post is a result of that idea. congrats me you're off to a good start

anyways, my "outfit" today (because I'm not actually wearing it because i can't go outside because its -13 degrees) is mostly stuff i got for christmas. the skirt is from macy's (the label says "porridge"? idk) and the bralette is from free people (i got all sorts of colors) and the socks are smartwool, i believe! cardigan is madewell, clogs are thrifted, and purse is fossil! phew. now more photos of me standing around.

today's a weird face day so i just closed my eyes.

& i figured out this skirt has pockets halfway through taking these pictures...

a testament to my current mood. (called, scientifically, Slumped Af. or Unmotivated As Fuck.)

and finally, a testament to the cold that is happening. it is cold. i am cold.


a way to always belong, belong, belong, won't be long until i am gone

hello internet! it has been approx. 2 months since i last payed attention to the blob. i feel bad but it seems that every post is starting with an apology note, so let's not go any further-- you know the drill. not much has changed. i got a puppy. i am tired. notice my non-capitalization and how relaxed and chill and cool i obviously am. this is not true. i ended christmas break today, and because of some dumbass reason, we have finals AFTER break. so i am the quiet before the storm kids, on the brink of panic !!!!!! but its cool, i got some pretty clothes for xmas that i should just get to already.

my friend Karina (she gets capitalized out of gratitude) got me a cool pants/shirt thing that is vintage and so i dressed up as a 60's-70's housewife today instead of studying!

looks pretty sweet, eh? i would say where everything is from but its pretty much all vintage and unattainable. heheheh.

also new year's eve i looked AMAZING if i may say so myself!!!!! i was going for Rihanna at the CFDAs but obviously didn't look THAT good. (if Rihanna ever sees this blog and/or post, you are amazing and i love you)

gold makeup + headpiece on pointtttt. for a second i thought i looked like i was going to coachella, which is gross, so please note that this was not my intention and i have no plans on wearing bindis to be cool any time soon.

anyways, that's all for now. i might post some more this month since i will be having a lot of snow days ..... also I'm turning 18 this month as well! i could buy a house or win the lottery or get married! speaking of getting married... here's a a moody sleepy mix with an arty pic of harry styles as the cover. can you stand me? probably not.  


liberté, égalité, beyoncé

news flash: it is fall.

i like fall (ish, not as awesome as spring or summer) and these last few nice days have been... well, nice.
i got this sooper cool dress in chi town (topshop, on sale, yaaaas). worn with my vintage nightgown, frilly socks from target and my miu mius who i can barely walk in for fear of scuffing or hurting. they've been just chillin on my bookshelf for about 5 years now. i think they're more like tiny little satin sculptures more than shoes that should be worn outside, ya feel?
(photo creeds to ma pute de luxe, bien sûr.)

i know im not super good at blogging anymore, but i swear i am takin pics on my instagram every day. if u really care, go look at it. if not, then please don't.

the colors are kinda wonky in these pics but it captures the nice sunshine a little bit.

obviously its been senior year and i've been stressin' hardcore with every other senior about college apps, future, money etc. i work and stuff so there's that too. i never dress cute anymore, it's so sad. i swear i wear the same thing to school every day.

but today i biked with my french host sister, who's visiting me, and i looked super cayoot. scratch that, i LOOK super cayoot.


skin to my bones

bye summer. i'll miss you.~~~~~~~~~~


"but im not hot enough to be a senior"

this one's probs gonna be boring and superfluous to anyone who actually knows me in real life (not many of you, thank jesus) but i took some senior pics! or, someone else took them, i just romped through an orchard and changed clothes. i of course chose the location and the outfits, if you can't tell, but i loved the style of photography of the girl who took them. very non-cheesy, very pretty and artsy. just how i like it.

i would've done this myself and just done senior pics but in a self-portrait kind of way (i already take so many pictures of myself standing around in fields with flowy dresses, god knows) but i decided to leave this one to the professionals. it was nice not having to run back and forth to the tripod, let me say.

this girl took the pictures and edited them. if you live in the northern midwest-ish area i would highly reccommend her.


they say the truth aint pretty but comin from that pretty mouth

hey, long time no post. hasn't it been all summer? hahahahah wow welp

part of the reason i was gone is prooooobably because i went to france again to visit my friends and family, whom i love and adore, and it was really magical. i visited clothilde (who i don't think has a blog anymore? but she has a tumblr so that works) and we walked around paris and it was amazing. then i went to lorraine and lived with my family, which was also just a breath of fresh air (freNCH air? HAHAHA). if you wanna see a pretty intense photo diary, i suggest looking at my instagram.

anyways, I've been doing that and also emotionally recovering from that (lots of TAKE ME BACKs and I JUST WANT TO STAY THEREs). I've also got a job, and I've been procrastinating on summer reading, and of course I've watched every season of teen wolf which i do not recommend to ANYONE. (if anyone's wondering, stydia is life, and lydia is the queen of the world, and malia can go fucking away. also dylan is my one tru luv.)

but I bought some things in france!!!1!11!!! when i was in paris i, like all stupid americans, was like "I WANNA LOOK PARISIAN" so with the help of clothilde i bought some french clothes. c'était trop bien. et maintenant je suis comme une vrai parisienne. (not) (i will never be french) (she says as she sheds a quiet tear)

the dress is des petits hauts, and its comfy and soft and silky and magic. (also apparently très FRANÇAISE.) the shoes, which you can't see very well in any of these pictures, are benismon

ending with the stupid tumblr-girl-hiding-her-face-with-flowers, sorry not sorry.

we shall see when i'll post this year, or if i'll be active. i like to think i will, but it's my senior year so i have to stress about everything/realize i won't have a future/etc, and that might mean i don't focus on blogging. but i blogged today, so there's a good sign.

and to continue my trend of narcissism i'm going to do my senior pictures in a few weeks, and thus i can share them with everyone. sorry my blog is mostly just pictures of my face haaaa.

if any of you are my french friends or family, or just french people in general, je t'adooooore t'es magnifique et parfait et tous. gros gros bisous mon amour. je t'aime pour tjs ♡