liberté, égalité, beyoncé

news flash: it is fall.

i like fall (ish, not as awesome as spring or summer) and these last few nice days have been... well, nice.
i got this sooper cool dress in chi town (topshop, on sale, yaaaas). worn with my vintage nightgown, frilly socks from target and my miu mius who i can barely walk in for fear of scuffing or hurting. they've been just chillin on my bookshelf for about 5 years now. i think they're more like tiny little satin sculptures more than shoes that should be worn outside, ya feel?
(photo creeds to ma pute de luxe, bien sûr.)

i know im not super good at blogging anymore, but i swear i am takin pics on my instagram every day. if u really care, go look at it. if not, then please don't.

the colors are kinda wonky in these pics but it captures the nice sunshine a little bit.

obviously its been senior year and i've been stressin' hardcore with every other senior about college apps, future, money etc. i work and stuff so there's that too. i never dress cute anymore, it's so sad. i swear i wear the same thing to school every day.

but today i biked with my french host sister, who's visiting me, and i looked super cayoot. scratch that, i LOOK super cayoot.


skin to my bones

bye summer. i'll miss you.~~~~~~~~~~


"but im not hot enough to be a senior"

this one's probs gonna be boring and superfluous to anyone who actually knows me in real life (not many of you, thank jesus) but i took some senior pics! or, someone else took them, i just romped through an orchard and changed clothes. i of course chose the location and the outfits, if you can't tell, but i loved the style of photography of the girl who took them. very non-cheesy, very pretty and artsy. just how i like it.

i would've done this myself and just done senior pics but in a self-portrait kind of way (i already take so many pictures of myself standing around in fields with flowy dresses, god knows) but i decided to leave this one to the professionals. it was nice not having to run back and forth to the tripod, let me say.

this girl took the pictures and edited them. if you live in the northern midwest-ish area i would highly reccommend her.


they say the truth aint pretty but comin from that pretty mouth

hey, long time no post. hasn't it been all summer? hahahahah wow welp

part of the reason i was gone is prooooobably because i went to france again to visit my friends and family, whom i love and adore, and it was really magical. i visited clothilde (who i don't think has a blog anymore? but she has a tumblr so that works) and we walked around paris and it was amazing. then i went to lorraine and lived with my family, which was also just a breath of fresh air (freNCH air? HAHAHA). if you wanna see a pretty intense photo diary, i suggest looking at my instagram.

anyways, I've been doing that and also emotionally recovering from that (lots of TAKE ME BACKs and I JUST WANT TO STAY THEREs). I've also got a job, and I've been procrastinating on summer reading, and of course I've watched every season of teen wolf which i do not recommend to ANYONE. (if anyone's wondering, stydia is life, and lydia is the queen of the world, and malia can go fucking away. also dylan is my one tru luv.)

but I bought some things in france!!!1!11!!! when i was in paris i, like all stupid americans, was like "I WANNA LOOK PARISIAN" so with the help of clothilde i bought some french clothes. c'était trop bien. et maintenant je suis comme une vrai parisienne. (not) (i will never be french) (she says as she sheds a quiet tear)

the dress is des petits hauts, and its comfy and soft and silky and magic. (also apparently très FRANÇAISE.) the shoes, which you can't see very well in any of these pictures, are benismon

ending with the stupid tumblr-girl-hiding-her-face-with-flowers, sorry not sorry.

we shall see when i'll post this year, or if i'll be active. i like to think i will, but it's my senior year so i have to stress about everything/realize i won't have a future/etc, and that might mean i don't focus on blogging. but i blogged today, so there's a good sign.

and to continue my trend of narcissism i'm going to do my senior pictures in a few weeks, and thus i can share them with everyone. sorry my blog is mostly just pictures of my face haaaa.

if any of you are my french friends or family, or just french people in general, je t'adooooore t'es magnifique et parfait et tous. gros gros bisous mon amour. je t'aime pour tjs ♡


//west coast

When I was in France I had a lot of cool experiences, but one of the coolest things I took away was the way foreigners view Americans and American culture (if it exists? pretend it does). What I saw, at least, was something like "bigger, faster, better, shinier, newer, younger, more expensive". That matches with what I originally thought, but it was a lot more obvious seeing it across the ocean. 

At about the same time I began to see this romanticized version of America (thank you, I didn't need more things to romanticize!), I also stumbled across luxury tumblrs. They reinforced this whole idea of America in a really in-your-face way-- I also got kind of interested in them because it's just so funny that there are teenagers on the internet reblogging pictures of skinny tan ladies wearing Gucci. If that's not a way to escape your own sad life and live in a fantasy, I don't know what is.

The whole image of this country is pretty messed up, all youth and money and iPhones, and obviously this image isn't even real. Once again, I will say the word **romanticized**. I don't sleep under an American flag, take my Mercedes to school and hang out with Selena Gomez. (She doesn't even seem that cool, anyway.) Our "culture" amusing at first, but gets kind of annoying.

When is it not annoying for me? Yep, this is where I bring in Lana Del Rey. I really like her music, but more importantly her aesthetic is SO. PRETTY. Her whole "American dream" thing is great. She dips our culture into instagram colors so I don't have to do it in my head! Her ideas of luxury are so over-the-top and old-fashioned that it's fashionable. She sleeps with old rich dudes, she wears 3-inch nails, she looks fab.

To celebrate her new album Ultraviolence, I have put together some photos. Some of these photos are from Kylie Jenner's instagram. Kylie is pretty much the definition of luxury, and her instagram is really shady and idyllic, which makes it so easy to romanticize her life. 


My take was like this, shot by my friend Ilan and styled by me. Look at them while listening to some of my favorites from the new album (West Coast, Brooklyn Baby, Shades Of Cool, Old Money, and Florida Kilos).