girl of my dreams


styling the new shoes, pt. two! tried to veer away from the sporty menswear angle and went in the exact opposite direction. it was a good exercise though, and thank god I did it. I've had snow days for the past two days, and including President's Day that means I've been at school approx. 2 days this week. i finished all my homework (mostly) yesterday so now i'm making good use of my time, aka on my phone all the time and rewatching downton abbey ?? yeah i suck creatively but LOOK I PUT ON CLOTHES THAT AREN'T LEGGINGS AND A T SHIRT GIVE ME A GOLD MEDAL

if these shoes look different from the other post.......,,,,.... that's because my PUPPY ATE THE OTHER ONES which were $16 AND PERFECT. i was upset with him for a while but he's so damn cute, ugh, i love him so much. so of course i sped on amazon and got mahself a new pair that was too expensive.

Shirt, dress and nightgown thing are all thrifted, and the shoes are Nike Air Overpriced whatevers. just google "white nikes tumblr" and you'll find them, by god.

speaking of tumblr, shall I fulfill another stereotype of the White Girl Wearing Lolita Style Clothes? insert giant animal backpack here~~~~~~-------

ahhh, that's better. backpack is from Baby The Stars Shine Bright. it was my 8th grade graduation present i believe. that and the lovely little miu mius on the bookshelf behind me.

look at how creepy that bunny is. i hope to accomplish what she has accomplished in life, i.e. being small and soft and having bright pink eyes and having a slit in the back to carry things. any day now.

also this song by king krule just SLAYS ME evERYime.



Birthday presents are fun. I'm 18 now so i could easily buy a lottery ticket for anyone reading this. 

have i worn this cardigan in the past 3 outfit posts??? yes, yes yes. it goes with everything though, so #noragrets. But the pants are the birthday purchase (topshop on sale) and the shoes are thrifted for $16 (!!!!!). I've always wanted to dress all basic and mensware-ish like every other boring white girl on tumblr and now i finally can~!!!!`!1!!@@@!!! lol but seriously, i am so boring.
shirt is old old forever 21, belt is from i was little, blah blah.

I love these shoes. i love them. i love themilovethem. 

Bonus-- birthday coat!!!! continuing the trend of being boring and predictable and all boyfriend-style-trying-to-be-chic-and-lorde-ish but hey, the coat is nice (also topshop, also on sale). 

The other thing i got was these super fun teva sandals!!!!!! they make me feel like a dad on vacation with his 2.5 blonde children and I love them sooooo much. One can never have enough awkward summer sandals.

that purple tribal print gets me errytime.


i feel grown up with u in ur car

i survived finals... now, some pics for winter! i'm excited to do the whole flowery thing when there are actually flowers growing. but for now, wide open spaces and blue is my current aesthetic!

i went "urban exploring" with my friend elliot on a cloudy day last weekend. in small cities the only thing to do is explore abandoned buildings and cemeteries, i suppose. it was so stereotypical *teen of our generation*, but hey. my girl lorde gets me.


notting hill was a shitty movie but i watched it anyways: my week in review

i am on a ROLL when it comes to blogging!!!!! 2 times in less than a week???????? WHAT DA fuuUUUUuuuqqq (but seriously i will probs just forget about it in another week and come back around summertime)

today is my second snow day in a row! i would be happy about it but finals is in exactly a week and i am stressing because usually if we have school we can go over stuff and study and now we can't do that and i have no motivation are you kidding me and and and

speaking of no motivation, i've decided maybe if i try to do some things i like (i.e. this blog, and also reading more) they will give me motivation to do other things, such as STUDYING. this blog post is a result of that idea. congrats me you're off to a good start

anyways, my "outfit" today (because I'm not actually wearing it because i can't go outside because its -13 degrees) is mostly stuff i got for christmas. the skirt is from macy's (the label says "porridge"? idk) and the bralette is from free people (i got all sorts of colors) and the socks are smartwool, i believe! cardigan is madewell, clogs are thrifted, and purse is fossil! phew. now more photos of me standing around.

today's a weird face day so i just closed my eyes.

& i figured out this skirt has pockets halfway through taking these pictures...

a testament to my current mood. (called, scientifically, Slumped Af. or Unmotivated As Fuck.)

and finally, a testament to the cold that is happening. it is cold. i am cold.


a way to always belong, belong, belong, won't be long until i am gone

hello internet! it has been approx. 2 months since i last payed attention to the blob. i feel bad but it seems that every post is starting with an apology note, so let's not go any further-- you know the drill. not much has changed. i got a puppy. i am tired. notice my non-capitalization and how relaxed and chill and cool i obviously am. this is not true. i ended christmas break today, and because of some dumbass reason, we have finals AFTER break. so i am the quiet before the storm kids, on the brink of panic !!!!!! but its cool, i got some pretty clothes for xmas that i should just get to already.

my friend Karina (she gets capitalized out of gratitude) got me a cool pants/shirt thing that is vintage and so i dressed up as a 60's-70's housewife today instead of studying!

looks pretty sweet, eh? i would say where everything is from but its pretty much all vintage and unattainable. heheheh.

also new year's eve i looked AMAZING if i may say so myself!!!!! i was going for Rihanna at the CFDAs but obviously didn't look THAT good. (if Rihanna ever sees this blog and/or post, you are amazing and i love you)

gold makeup + headpiece on pointtttt. for a second i thought i looked like i was going to coachella, which is gross, so please note that this was not my intention and i have no plans on wearing bindis to be cool any time soon.

anyways, that's all for now. i might post some more this month since i will be having a lot of snow days ..... also I'm turning 18 this month as well! i could buy a house or win the lottery or get married! speaking of getting married... here's a a moody sleepy mix with an arty pic of harry styles as the cover. can you stand me? probably not.  


liberté, égalité, beyoncé

news flash: it is fall.

i like fall (ish, not as awesome as spring or summer) and these last few nice days have been... well, nice.
i got this sooper cool dress in chi town (topshop, on sale, yaaaas). worn with my vintage nightgown, frilly socks from target and my miu mius who i can barely walk in for fear of scuffing or hurting. they've been just chillin on my bookshelf for about 5 years now. i think they're more like tiny little satin sculptures more than shoes that should be worn outside, ya feel?
(photo creeds to ma pute de luxe, bien sûr.)

i know im not super good at blogging anymore, but i swear i am takin pics on my instagram every day. if u really care, go look at it. if not, then please don't.

the colors are kinda wonky in these pics but it captures the nice sunshine a little bit.

obviously its been senior year and i've been stressin' hardcore with every other senior about college apps, future, money etc. i work and stuff so there's that too. i never dress cute anymore, it's so sad. i swear i wear the same thing to school every day.

but today i biked with my french host sister, who's visiting me, and i looked super cayoot. scratch that, i LOOK super cayoot.


skin to my bones

bye summer. i'll miss you.~~~~~~~~~~